Okay I called off from my day job today. I took the time in order to work from home on an upcoming book review and other writing edits I need to get in before the October deadline. Needless to say, because I know there’s going to be “work” involved with these projects? I’m avoiding it! I’m writing other stuff when I should be doing the stuff that will ensure a check in the mail.
I think I’m giving in and giving myself over to that ill fated report card I got back in the day when one of my teachers had the adacity to write in the report card comment section how I was vacillating & procrastinating when it came down to actually doing my homework! Maybe I reason that I’m just making sure that painful stigma stays with me by not breaking the mode and doing the work.
Some noted PHD would probably say how it’s significant that I’ve lived up to that teacher’s scathing report for all of these years. But, then again… I know me, like I knew me back then. I know how I operate. When I have a project to get done. Initially, I avoid it. WHY? The answer is because I know that once I tackle it…nothing and no one is allowed into my space to interrupt the flow that seems to come effortlessly from somewhere inside of me. Make sense?
Well, you have to be me to understand.,, But, perhaps I’m not so different in my realm of work ethic after all? How many of you women out there work from this angle and still get the job done? Am I truly the only one? Women, sometimes the journey requires a light hearted approach to finding doable solutions…Feel free to share your avoidance escapades…