Happy Monday, women of courage! Today I’ve been contemplating on my service work and my thoughts centered on my beginnings. Most of you who follow my work on the blogs or gained insights from my freelancewriting.com articles and magazine and newspaper columns, know a bit about me. But, you don’t truly know, Clara, the woman or Clara, the advocate and activist, who feels called to champion the voice of the “underdog.” Many of my beloved readers and social media connections do not know how I came to live a life of authenticity. You don’t know the path to my becoming, unless you’ve read my first attempt to share my WHY with you through my 2011 self published e-book, A Life Toward Authenticity-My Authentic Woman Story.
Today, I’m sharing excerpts of my story captured in my Authentic Woman eBook. I have to warn you, some of the earlier writings are raw, but it’s most definitely for real:)
“Hello, my name is Clara and this is my story.” Enjoy!
“We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?’ Actually, who are we not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are meant to shine, as children do…and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson
In 2000 I was caught up in a whirlwind of doubts, confusion, longing and disgust. I wasn’t satisfied with the way my life had turned out. I had married and divorced. Bore two wonderful children who would become my reasons for being present. Yet, there was a recurring and nagging wariness and feelings of unworthiness in my chest.
I didn’t feel like I was living up to my full potential. Why couldn’t I be happy with my children, family, friends and career? Why did I feel as if I was tossed in a sea of choppy currents screaming out for a life-preserver and no one could hear…or care? I wasn’t living. Just co-existing. Why, then, wasn’t I living up to my full potential and becoming the woman I’d always wanted to know?
I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was on a journey to “becoming”. And I was fighting this change every step of the way. What exactly do I mean by “on a journey to becoming”? Simply stated, I was on a mission to change, and I was afraid of the unknown. I was reluctant to reawaken to my true self, denying the path I was destined to embark upon – the road leading to self-awareness and total authenticity.
To celebrate my journey toward authenticity, I created Authentic Woman, a motivational and personal development website that’s all about “The Woman” in 2008. I felt compelled to offer a platform for our voices, where we share life experiences, inclusive of our hopes, our dreams, our passions and desires.
Authentic Woman is the manifestation of my passion and ultimate purpose, which is to embrace, explore, empower and reawaken our woman “truth.” Reading these women’s stories inspired me to write this personal side of Clara. I’ve lived and learned from life experiences, and now I’m living my passion and purpose. I wasn’t always so clear on how this “becoming” thing worked. So, let me share with you how I became the woman I’d always wanted to know!
“With age comes wisdom.” I’m sure you’ve all heard this quotation before. But how many of us truly believe it? As we age, we enter into this solstice of life where we’re either embracing or denying the obvious. We are more aware of our intuitive selves and sense of knowing. We’re no longer hungry for the acceptance of others. We are “becoming” comfortable in our own skin. We are “becoming” truth seekers. It is our journey to authenticity.
“Walk out on faith. Don’t let fear of the unknown stand in your way.”
Do You Know Where You Are Going To?
In 1975 the movie Mahogany, starring Ms. Diana Ross, graced big screens all across the country. Ms. Ross played Tracy, a young African-American woman set on following her dreams to break into the modeling and fashion business. As she’s headed out from her hometown to follow her dreams on a seemingly slow-moving train, the theme song of Mahogany, written by Michael Masser and Gerald Goffin and produced by Berry Gordy starts by asking the questions:
“Do you know where you’re going to? Do you like the things that life is showing you? Where are you going to? Do you know?” The most daunting line of the song with which I could totally relate was “Do you get what you’re hoping for when you look around and there’s no open door. What are you hoping for? Do you know?”
I never intended to become a well-known designer, actress or household name when I set out to follow my dreams at the age of 18. There were two things I definitely knew at that age: First, I didn’t want to attend the local colleges or universities like most of my friends. Secondly, I had no intention of settling down and marrying one of the local clerks at the country deli or living on the outskirts of the small town where you saw miles of dirt roads, overgrown riverbeds and beaten down old men, who spent their entire lives working for the man, in the white house on the hill ,with the immaculate green lawn protected by a herd of shrewd Dalmatians.
My single thought at the time was to come up from that environment where Jim Crow remained law, and start living the life I knew was out there…
To read more of my compelling life journey to authenticity, go to my author’s page at https://www.amazon.com/author/clarafreeman and download a copy to read at your leisure. And stay tuned for my new book, Unleash Your Pearls~Empowering Women Voices, awaiting publisher’s release date.
I end every post by reminding you guys to always treat yourself special. Well, I’m taking my own advice and will be away for a few weeks. Hope to see you right back here in June. If you’d like to reach me, send a message via my contact page.
Have a fun and safe summer everyone!
Good Morning, women of faith and beauty! I hope you’ve been enjoying your spring, as much as I have. This photo is the view outside my window when I wake up in the mornings. Imagine what the trees look like blanketed by snow or shaken by gigantic winds. I have captured a few of those photos with my cellphone to share with my growing audience. Keep in mind, I’m no photographer, just a nature lover. I’m so happy to be in such close proximity to the awesomeness of Mother Nature again. This beautiful space allows for the tranquil moments I seek during unsettling times when a world is fraught with chaos and troubles. In this place, I find an inner peace, strength and resilience. I can relax, rejuvenate and create every morning, noon and night.
On this beautiful Monday morning, I have a song on my lips and gratitude in my heart and I’m thankful and humbled by how far I’ve come as I accept and embrace the ‘Why’ of my existence. My parents used to joke that I came into the world, “screaming & hollering”, in fact, my sibling used to think that description of my birth was hilarious! Little did we know that I would come into the world, “Protesting”. We’re taught at an early age that Jesus came to save souls. At the age of eleven, I knew that I was somehow born to serve those who walked unaware; those who remain silent in the uprisings; those who take life as it comes and doesn’t want to challenge the world’s apple cart of injustice, human beings civil rights, women rights, internet trolls, racist and haters. I believe in my why.
For the last 5 decades, I’ve made it’s been my mission to empower the voice of women, children and the elderly. These are the voices, I feel, that have gone unheard for too long. Little children of abuse and neglect depend upon adult authority figures for their protection, and often are told to speak when spoken to, if at all. Many women guard their tongues and are afraid to speak their truths, for fear of backlash or personal consequence. The wisdom of our elderly, oftentimes goes unrecognized, ignored and taken for granted. My goal is to keep these “underdogs” in the forefront of change.
Do you know the reason for your existing? Do you know your why? Don’t stress if you haven’t awakened to your truths. Trust and believe, purpose will reveal itself during the time of your “Becoming.”
A bit of news on Unleash Your Pearls~ Empowering Women Voices. Unfortunately, I haven’t been given a release date as of yet, but the good news from my publisher is that I will have the book’s cover to share with all of you very soon!
“This book was written for all of the “underdogs”, who, for whatever reason are not allowed the opportunity to speak from a place of authentic truth. It is for women, who don’t know that their voices matter. This book champions all women to unleash your pearls.”
Unleash Your Pearls~Empowering Women Voices, 2016. Pending release date